The pandemic is a pain! I think many of us still feel we will wake up from a dream and it will all have gone away! Sadly, so many people have died, lives are ruined, hopes dashed but I, for one, still can’t believe it is really happening, can’t imagine what I am waiting for, surely listening to radio every morning and watching the evening news on TV should convince me that this is serious. But the numbers are sort of unbelievable. It seems I can take on board small figures, like 20 people killed in a landslide or even 180 die in a plane crash but 1800 in one night is too much for my small brain to take in, is it just me?
When will there be an end to this dreadful virus?
Nobody can possibly tell us that...we have been told to isolate...we are all, (most of us,) doing that, but why do some people insist on knowing WHEN it will end. Every news, every conversation is about WHEN...just wait and stay indoors, keep yourself busy, keep the family safe and wait, it will be OK when it’s OK.
Just think what is happening worldwide, people living in high rise buildings with lots of children, families in shanty towns living in poverty, men and woman risking their lives to look after us, and everything we take for granted, all gone! I’m lost for words, I can’t get to grips with it all, am I the only one who can’t take it in? I am sick of talking about it, what can be said, we must just get on with it the best that we can. Be positive, keep busy and shut up, that’s my advice for what it’s worth!
I’m alright, I am enjoying the isolation. I don’t have to prove myself; I don’t have to put my eyebrows on every day, I can be a slob…maybe I always have been one and nobody ever told me! Sometimes people hurt me, things they say, perhaps not realising their words hurt. I’m very easily hurt, always have been, I take everything personally. I’ve always been ‘delicate,’ I’ve always been trying to prove myself, prove I was worthwhile, and I’ve come to the conclusion that I am a waste of time...it’s true believe me.
Will we learn anything from this? Will we still look after each other, will we care for our parents and loved ones, even if they are miles away, will we be aware of all the lonely people out there? There is also so much abuse that has come to the surface during these stressful times, it’s bubbling away, and the lid is about to fly off, it’s terrifying, many families are out of control. Children are frightened, grown-ups are depressed and are at the end of their tethers.
How can we help each other?
Here I go again...I know that as we are all so busy being busy that is suits us to just TEXT someone or maybe whiz off a quick email. It saves having to spend time talking to anyone. That might be alright for those ‘young ones,’ and I do it myself BUT don’t forget that some people are on their own and to get a phone call every so often is a God send. Just pick up the phone, it doesn’t need to take up too much of your precious life but if we don’t occasionally find the time to communicate with each other we will lose ourselves inside a bubble of emptiness! Talking helps, talking over your problems, hearing someone laugh, hear someone’s soothing voice if you are stressed, we need to hear a voice at the end of the line, don’t lose that, you can’t express yourself in a text. Use it for work but don’t make it all you have!
And finally…
I have kept busy during the pandemic, in fact it’s nearly the weekend again and I haven’t achieved that much again. Where does the time go? I’m trying to promote my new book…no darling it’s called BAD ORGANISATION and perhaps that says it all...I am badly organised, I try, I have papers in plastic folders marked SORT or WAITING REFUND and as I print off everything from my computer I have daily mound of papers that need filing...I can’t complete anything at the moment Gardner’s, a book distribution company can’t take stock of my book as they are full of last years stock, Amazon is filled to the brim and as I decided to write this book under the name of Wendy Darling, for some reason, it seems there are several Wendy Darling’s so my book often appears amongst fairy stories or ghost stories...my book is my memoir...it’s a MUST READ book, and I am confident that it will be made into a film or a TV series...I believe in it. Will you read it and believe in it too!
so what am I doing during the PANDEMIC?...well working of course!
and cooking…
and putting on weight!
